You left me.
I still ask, “why.”
All I know
was you said goodbye.
You left me when
I was so small.
I was taught
I didn’t matter at all
Me, little girl,
trying to find
Left to fend
you didn’t mind.
You left because
he was bad.
Yet, little me,
I still had
to live with him
and still you’re gone.
How did I
deserve that wrong?

How am I
expected to feel
about you now
my thoughts, they reel.
I resent you
I am mad
How could you leave me
with my dad?
He abused
that’s why you went
The things he did
I need to vent!
When I look
at my little girl
her fuzzy head
My lips, so curl
into a rage
only I can know
Why did you
have to go?
Why didn’t you
defend? protect?
They way I do
with no neglect.
My heart burns for her
my precious one.
I scream inside
HOW WAS THAT DONE!
Why did you leave?
How could you do
that horrible thing!
I was her too.
I was little
I was three.
I was lost
that was me.
I watched you go
onto that plane
I was left
with your adult pain.
I was little.
You were gone.
I still struggle
with all that wrong.
Dear Lord, that hurts.
Little ones
to Him belong.
Thank you, God,
for my heart song.
Thank you for healing
for Love that’s true.
For constant healing
earth can’t undo.
Thank you for knowing
that I still remain
a little girl
lost in pain.
Thank you for allowing
a second chance
loving my daughter
taking MY stance.
Teaching her that
I’LL NEVER LEAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NEVER.
That she is important
my ultimate reprieve.
Maybe what happened
was to teach me to stay
to give her the chance
that was taken away
from my little heart
when I was so young.
Maybe the lesson
was that I was the one
to change the course
of a desperate past.
To cancel the hurt
and make it not last.
To raise up a Champion,
solid and true!
Someone who knows
Mom. won’t. leave. you.
Things happen in life
some good and some not
we all have choices
this is our lot.
some scars are lessons
we don’t understand
until the story
unfolds in God’s hands.
The Master reminds us
our strength is measured
with Love’s Great Arms
we are so treasured.
So look for the lessons
within all your scars
and keep your perspective
focused on God, not the mars
of this life here on earth
eternal happy awaits
He is waiting, ready
right at those pearly gates.
I am not sure
what scars you carry
I am not sure
all the pains you bury
I am so sure
that what I said today
was a scar that I carried
and, so, now I pray
that as we work through
the scars that we share
that love still abounds
through the pain that we bare.
Read through your past
see what you learn
see if you can take
pain, sin and the burn
and change them to lessons
things that can grow
and make you so stronger
make you now know
that things might have happened
that really caused pain
but now you can change
and make them remain
in a place that is healthy
and teaches you not
to repeat all those things
and get through your lot
with strength from our Lord,
forgiveness now sets
in a place that is healthy
yet doesn’t forget.
Forgiveness just lets
us heal and move past
and takes away edges
that caused scars to last
I pray that God is with you
wherever you are
and heals all those painful,
yet beautiful scars.
beholder
Beautiful poem, you’ve been through so much, my mom and family left me when I was a baby, it affects the ability to trust and love. Your child has you so at least she’ll have the love and protection you deserved. I wish you joy and peace.
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Godโs plan is His own and itโs so hard to see through pain. Writing is so healing for me. When I saw my words and read them, I was able to achieve the next level of forgiveness and healing. Thank you for reading. Iโm sorry you have a similar story and I pray that you are able to find strength too. Big hugs and keep on keepin on! ๐น๐โบ๏ธ๐๐ป
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Be wellโ
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Someone once said, “Forgive and forget,” but I would say, “Forgive, but never forget,” for this is how we learn. Someone once said, “There’s a reason for everything,” but I say this nuts. We all have free will, the power of choice, and the ‘reasons’ are all of us making terrible choices that afflict everyone. May peace, happiness and JOY be your only companion, through Jesus Christ.
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I agree with you to a certain point but unfortunately sickness and sin rule this world. Not everyone has the opportunity to make the right choice. Some people have mental illnesses that prevent them from knowing right from wrong.
For that reason we all look forward to heaven, Where eternal joy is our reward for being faithful. God bless you too. Thank you so much for reading and for defending with such passion. ๐๐ป
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