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Monkey See? Monkey Do.

Drunk upon

what happened then

spewing words

hurt again

can’t stop talking

about the past

adrenaline lives

killing fast

robs your now

of happiness

replaces joy

with crappiness.


Bringing down

those you trap


yip and yap


People dread

when you call

knowing that

you will haul

them down into

that moat of sad

the past it haunts

and makes you mad


So you bring

others along

misery absorbs

so more belong

trapped within

your web of pain

but they escape

fear your drain.


Where the crowd

used to stand

you’re alone

lonely land.


Pushing away

bit by bit

sinking down

into your pit

clawing at


No one’s there

painful sting.


Watch your mouth

your attitude

keep others safe

the magnitude

of the words

your adrenaline speaks

can break you down

make you weak


Cling to things

that you control

prayer, it makes

you feel your soul

and you can heal

the words you say

and you can stop

the memory’s way

of feeding you

your sick addiction


and all it’s minions


Keep the past

in God’s sweet hands

prayer can make

powerful commands


Keep the Devil

away from you

Stand back dude

God’s great shoe

will kick Him far

and you will be

safe again

a stronger she


Say sweet words

aware of you

Save your friends

with all you do

talk about

things that matter

don’t knock em’ down

with sinful chatter


Be sweet

Speak kind

Love others

Focused mind

all upon

God above

Practice your

Christian love.


When I was growing up I remember my mom dreading phone calls from her sisters.  They were so absorbed with their past and pain and they would trap her on the phone for hours and just drain her of all joy.  She would walk around with the weight of the world on her shoulders for hours after the phone call.  We would all dread the calls from them.  Their relationship was always strained.  It was really sad to see.

Well, ya know what they say about monkey see, monkey do?

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I was talking to my sister the other day and I found myself doing the exact same thing.  Except I was the horrible negative sister drudging up all the pain of our past. I was talking about stuff that had nothing to do with anything in the present.  Just stupid entitled pain stuff that I adrenaline rushed out of my mouth and inflicted on her.  ENTITLED TO MY PAIN, ENTITLED TO MY PAIN, BLAH BLAH BLAH….

Wow.  45 minutes passed and God said ENOUGH!  What are you doing?!?!?  He slapped me side of my head and said, “wake up, you fool”.

I saw myself and it made me sick.  I was toxic.  I was draining the life out of my sister, making her live in the past with me and tearing other people down with me.

again, I saw what I was doing.  I made myself sick.

Don’t you think that when you talk about other people in a negative way, that somehow they can feel it?  Our spirits are so connected.  I truly believe it, and I really want to be aware of the power of my feelings and my words. Both KIND and NEGATIVE.

What I discovered was super important.  Any recovery program states that admitting you have a problem is the first step towards recovery.  I realized what I was doing, who I was emulating and almost vomited.  I told my sister I was sorry and that I would never do it again.  She laughed at me and lightened the mood.  However, I didn’t take it so lightly.  I need to overcome, be better, be a light for my Savior and draw people closer to HIM, not down a dark path of destruction!

Adrenaline is such a powerfully destructive drug.  So addictive.  We are so entitled when we are under its grasp.  Be aware of adrenaline, be prepared for it, identify it and soothe it with prayer.  God is there and wants us to cling to HIM.

Proverbs 15:1 A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger.

So, in conclusion, I have made the first step.  I think it’s a powerful step towards forgiveness too.  A path I am still immensely confused about.  If any of you have information on forgiveness, I’d love to hear from you.

Until the next, God bless you.  Thanks for following along the Simply My Swank journey of Christian Rhymes and sharing the love of God.  Please share, let’s let God’s light shine and healing and happiness replace the power of fear and shame.

God is good, all the time.

8 thoughts on “Monkey See? Monkey Do.”

  1. Katie, I love this poem! I can SO relate to this. I struggle with forgiveness and bitterness towards others who have wronged me. I just posted what I’m learning on bitterness and I’ll send you a link. I still struggle to forgive and move forward but by God’s grace we will have the victory in Jesus.
    This is by Ryan on forgiveness.
    And here’s my post.

    Love ya! Big hugs! 💖🤗

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    1. I am so thankful to hear from you Vivian. I struggle with understanding what forgiveness even means. I just don’t get the concept. If someone next level sins and you were the target what does it mean to forgive. I don’t understand Vivian. But I wonder if I have a wall of sin around the concept that I need to start praying about. Like I don’t want to forgive cause I’m still so dan angry about it.
      I’ll pray for you and you pray for me too, okay friend? Big hugs sister Christian.
      Stay strong. I hope you’re feeling better. 💕

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      1. It’s dreadful when other Christians sin against us and the deeper the hurt runs, the harder it is to forgive. I used to think forgiveness is a one time thing but have learned that it’s a process, a slow healing over time. I have currently been struggling with bitterness over Christians who have mistreated me……why? How can ppl be so mean? I expect it from unbelievers or snarky in-laws but other Christians? It’s too much. It feels too hard to bear Katie!😢😢 I’m looking at the book Beauty Marks by Linda Barrack, chapter 3 on forgiveness. Do you know of it? If you’re on facebook messenger I can take pictures of the text and send them to you. It’s really helping me to delve into this topic because I’m struggling so much too and depression has set in. I’m praying for you Katie and so sorry for the hurt you are enduring….it’s hard. 🙏😢

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      2. Yes, I agree. It reminds us that we are all simple humans. Guided by sin and saved by grace. Yet even Christians suffer from that stupid disease of the Devil. It’s the least expected that hurt us the most. The art of surprise.
        Thinking of forgiveness as a process helps too. I’ll check out that book online. If you like it, I’m sure is great and worth the purchase. Thanks for your advice Vivian.
        Let’s encourage each other to rest in God’s comfort and pray for joy to win over anger n fear.

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      3. About Forgiveness. I have heard it said and I believe it is true that the people you may be angry at often don’t have a clue that you are angry at them. And then some are so stuck in themselves that they do things to hurt others, or they do things to bully others because they have likely been bullied. It is a learned behavior, and even preschoolers do it. I have seen it and been on the receiving end of it through my life endlessly and I am now 77. But I want you to remember that those who do these things do not suffer; we are the ones who suffer. Of course we are angry about it. I was a child and was molested by one of my parents. The other one sold us down the river. For the longest time I hated them both and was justifiably angry. But one day I was challenged to do a forgiveness letter. Both of them had already passed on, so I did it, and it was a challenge with a cash prize for the best one. Well, I admit what encouraged me to write it was that prize. But in the end result, I wrote that letter and I felt as though a boulder had been lifted from my chest. I was the one who suffered, who tried many times to end it all. Not them. Never them.

        So you can hold onto your anger for the remainder of your life, but who is it hurting? When you forgive others, in reality, you are forgiving your own self – perhaps for trusting someone who did not deserve your trust, and perhaps for some other legitimate reason. But the thing is that the one who keeps hurting is you.

        I hope that you can find a way to write a forgiveness letter, even if you never send it to the other person. Perhaps you, as I did, will have that boulder lifted from your chest.

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      4. Well written, I hope you won that writing challenge. 🙏🏻👏🏼❤️🌹💰
        Forgiveness comes in so many forms. I found most important one for me was giving it to God.
        My letter of forgiveness is written all throughout this blog. My tangible journey of forgiving others, forgiving myself and allowing myself to be forgiven.
        Thanks for your beautiful addition to this post. I’m glad your weight is lifted. Praise God. Are you saved Anne? I don’t mean to cut to the chase, but I did.
        God is so good. Amen.

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  2. This article touched me. It is so full of the attitude we are going to need to change the world as it goes through darkness. I needed to hear it. My adrenaline often gets overused in the wrong direction! Forgiveness to me means turning completely around and replacing what was wrong with what is right. Thank you for sharing your heart so openly!

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