habits,

comfort,

likes,

my way

what I do

every day

 

life was shaken

habits changed

what I did

now rearranged

 

snapped me out of

habitual walk

stopped and assessed

thoughtful talk

 

everything

thinking clear

what I do

how I steer

 

navigating family

everyday

thoughts now clearer

every way

 

where I spend

hard earned pay

who gets benefit

now I say

that certain places

show their worth

wealth is sinful

consumes the earth

 

I will not

give my money

to those that think

control is funny

 

puts their shoulders

back too far

they believe

they own the stars

 

makes them feel

better than all

making others

stumble, fall

 

so I’ll tell you

this for sure

I will not

continue anymore

 

to line their pockets

with my sweat

I can promise

I won’t let

them succeed

cause I see clear

life, right now,

full of fear

started in

in a club of sin

they got together

with Grinch-Like Grin

said – let’s see

what people will do

as we create

a fear-filled stew

 

fight against

a Goliath tall?

someone like me?

someone so small?

 

yep, I am

my little deed,

can spread like fire

a tiny seed.

telling my story

my act can be

a tiny pebble

don’t you see?

causing a ripple

that spreads so far

the rich will know

only God owns stars.

 

Newsflash, I am never shopping at Amazon again.  I am the girl who had an amazon delivery vehicle stop at my house on a daily basis.  Click, buy this, click buy that…no thought about where my money was going, I didn’t care.  I was addicted to the convenience.  It was a fun habit.  Life was so cozy.

Well, time and more time and a snap out of habitual life can make bad habits extremely transparent.  I am analyzing and thinking about things I never thought about before.  How I prep for my daily activities, where I go and what I can do.  I am seeing life with brand new glasses.

Imagine you found out you are the richest person in the world.  What would that power do to your head?  Now imagine the power you would feel you could express on the world?

$113,000,000,000

imagine having that much money – I wondered what that kind of money would be like in day to day terms, so I googled that too.  Turns out I am not the only person to wonder – check out these interesting facts from Research Maniacs:

 

 

That is my stance.  I am also going to be shopping more locally and supporting all of the people that were forced to close their doors during this quarantine.  I am going to practice loving my neighbor and not lining the pockets of the super rich.

I want to talk about shopping and new habits.  

Let’s talk about safety and cleanliness.

AND, talk about the environment.  

Those disgusting, dirty gloves are everywhere.  On the ground, in the grocery carts, all the extra waste?!  Even more disgusting, people are reusing them!

I need to get more comfortable getting myself out of the house.  I still feel anxious when I go to stores.  Stupid dirty, nasty masks everywhere.  The oppression of society’s control of what I can or can’t do.  That is not loving at all.  It’s dirty and gross and I can’t handle it.  Seeing the sweaty, dirty gloves on the clerks hands as they scan my groceries. I am screaming inside right now.

People have the “common sense” to scream at people not wearing masks as they wear their 2 month old soothers, carelessly placed on their face, straight out of their pockets or hanging from their rear view mirror, covered in their nasty bad breath and whatever other debris they have picked up.

Thanks for making filth a lesson in empathy.  This is the most revolting and insane act of human “empathy” I have ever seen.  How am I alive to see this reality?  I keep waking up praying that it is just a bad dream.

Becoming more ethically aware of my actions is a valuable lesson.  I am thankful for time of silence.  I am thankful for my new relationship with the Lord, it’s so much stronger now. I know HIS value more than ever.  I am spending way more time in prayer.

There is still tons of work to do on me.  I am thankful for the time I’ve been blessed with to fix them.

Thank you God, thank you so much for inspiration.  Thank you for love.  You are my first love and you command me to love my neighbors.  Please help me see with your eyes and to make my actions so much more like you.  Things are tough right now, and everyone is struggling in their own way.  Please help us all to love our neighbors and not judge their journey.  Please help me love more the way you want me to love.  Help me to heal and feel more safe in you.  I love you so much, In Jesus’ Name, Amen.