Cast your cares on the LORD and He will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken (Psalm 55:22)
Muddy waters
do not see
the beauty
that’s in front of me.
Clouded eyes
shielded, guard
I struggle so.
Life is hard.
The storm has left
destruction here
walking around
full of fear.
Will it happen
yet again?
Another storm
flurry wind!
Taking away
all I know,
leaving me breathless
painful blow.

I run away
from my whole life
It’s way too hard
full of strife.
I don’t need them
don’t you see
it’s way to hard
leave me be.

I go away
silence please
walk to the water
fall on my knees
“help me God!”
I scream at Him
the crashing waves
and outlook grim
deafening power
muddy waves
pounding hard
Jesus saves?

I start to doubt
I’m mad at Him
This isn’t what
I thought, with whim
That life would be
a Christian? yes.
but this is hard
where is the bliss?

I thought it’d be easy
once I turned
my life over
now I’m burned
and I am angry
at that guy
that told me all
those horrid lies
This life is harder
than before
this isn’t easy
I wanted more!!!!!
I wanted peace
expected reward.
I pictured ease
eyes turned toward
the bottom, here
I don’t understand
so full of fear
why reprimand?
take away
everything
what did I do?
pity, sing.
I angry pray
Take. ME. NOW!
I don’t want this
I don’t care how!
don’t you see,
I’ve nothing left
this life is full
of happy theft.
It starts to rain
I’m soaking wet.
The tide came in
while I just sat.
Wallowing in
a temporary pain.
Eyes so cloudy
disgraceful, vain.
Now the waves
are all around.
I’m full of fear
a smashing sound.
The power they yield
come crashing down.

Waves pull me in
underneath.
Ocean’s blanket
a heavy sheath.
I know the end
is minutes away
didn’t He hear
me ask and pray?
“help” I said
now why more?
I was angry
on that shore
I try again
“help me please!”
I need more time
on my knees.
Try again,
commit to you
a brand new me
committed through.
I won’t wallow
in my storm
I will be strong
fortified form
when you guide me
I’ll follow along
I won’t run
I’ll stay, belong
to the path less travelled
faithful me
not so unravelled
eyes blurry.
See? I’ll look
past the storm
Suddenly I realize
I am warm…
The waves released
me from their grasp
on the shore
I cough and gasp.
I look around
the sun is out
the storm has passed
and with it doubt.
…and with it doubt.
I can’t believe
that I was spared
a second chance
fully prepared.
fully committed.
He. was. there.
I say with
a thankful prayer
God you are
a loving guide
taking me past
the fateful tide
providing a glimpse
of the other side
when I feel like
the incessant tide
was banked against me
It’s not true.
I don’t see the end
that’s only You!
So I will trust
and always obey
not run and hide
I’ll always stay
within your arms
when life gets tough
and look to you
when the seas get rough
not be angry
you’ll see me through.
That’s what I need
and so do You
You need my love
and I need Yours
eternal splendor
is my reward.
I promise to remember
and not forget
this lesson learned
don’t wallow and sit
pain is temporary
earth is flawed
so I’ll stay focused
on my God
trust in Him
especially when
the muddy waters
start filling in
I’ll focus upward
and seek His might
and stay within
God’s steady light.

Amen! Love that song Reckless Love too! God used that song to lift me up a couple months ago. God bless!
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Thanks so much for your continued support! It’s so awesome that you keep reading! God bless you too!
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Ah! Heartfelt and so so true1
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