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If I only…

I’m so tired

what a day


to sleep, I lay

feels like seconds

I’m awake

where am I?

I can’t make

out where I am

this isn’t home

It’s way too bright

I’m all alone

an empty room

a table there

I go and sit

at the second chair

there’s a wall

pictures play

It’s my life?

every day?

What is this

where am I?

I have to go home

I get up and try

Only two doors

I push I pull

they are shut

my eyes are full

of tears, I’m stuck

This feels so bad

help me, someone

I feel so sad

I know where I am

I need more time

I need to say sorry

For my crime

I need to say

a simple prayer

I need to go back

to my bed, back there

I needed to bow

down on my knees

I needed to repent

and simply say, Please

Forgive me Father

for repeating mistakes

Please save me, Father

I give, please take

my life, my sin

I’ll start over


and in He walks

motions to move

back to my chair

His eyes, they prove

He is the Judge

He is The Way

I bow my head

in shame, I say

I had hundreds

of times to say

I love you, Jesus,

but I gave them away

I loved the sin

I didn’t want You

I chased the money

and didn’t choose You

I always thought I

had just one more day

I didn’t want You

I turned the other way

I rejected,

I didn’t believe

I never accepted

I didn’t receive

so now, Jesus,

what happens to me?

I see on that wall

all the days that you see

and suddenly a door opened

the heat instantly burned

but no fire entered

the room so I turned

with feet that I tried

to fight and to stay

but they kept on walking

to that door, to that way

I could see tears

pouring down His face

I could see love

I can’t ever erase

I can’t ever return

to that room, back to Him

cause I denied

my eternity grim

my skin now charred

and constantly burns,

I scream in such pain

all my misery churns

and the worst part of all

is that I can still see

the other door

that always reminds me

that I had a choice

that I had the way

to make this much different

I scream “LET ME SAY!!!!”

Let me go back

and tell all my kids

Let me go back

and I’ll fill up their lids

With truth, with the answer

They need to know this

They need to repent

How did I miss

How did I assume

I could have one more day

When thousands of times

I chose my own way

I knew of the truth

I denied every day

I chose this torture

I can’t get away

The door is right there

and each time I touch

A new fire starts burning

It hurts me so much

This place is so real

I scream, help them God

Please help them see this

For one second they trod

they’ll change

they’ll hear me

they’ll know

they’ll see

Oh please, let me help them

I need them to know

That this is the last place

That they’d choose to go

and still I can see them

They’re living like me

They’re denying when people

Explain Jesus, you see?

This is too much

I can’t close my eyes

I am just watching

Them accepting lies

They are repeating

All my mistakes

They are all scoffing

And think all it takes

Is to be a good person

Nothing can happen

Just live your life

Do what you want n’

When you die

Just go to sleep

That’s what I told them

Why did I keep

Spewing the lies

From my pompous head

When I knew the truth

I knew, now I dread

That they will all follow

And find me right here

In torture, they’ll hate me

and add to this fear


If you think you have one more day. If you think that it’s not real. If you think that this is all a joke and a good God would never send someone to Hell, you are so wrong. God does not send you to hell. You send yourself there. You choose.

You choose to believe or not believe the oldest book ever written. You choose to love Jesus or deny Him. You choose heaven or hell. It is not the Lord that chooses that. You choose to think about 2021 and why we say this date? Why did time reset to zero when Jesus was born? Who could make time reset? Did any other prophet reset time? Buddha? Mohammad? the Pope? John Smith?

True love is choice. If love was forced it would not be real. God is love. God is real. When you choose Him you become a new person. Life makes sense. When you deny Him, you are choosing your own path and it leads to destruction. You choose no love. You choose to slap the face of your own creator. You choose eternal death and torture. You will reap what you sow.

I wish I could choose for you. But I can’t. It is up to you to make that choice. I pray that reality of eternity is something that you can understand, be curious about and finally accept. That you choose Jesus today.

If you like science, you will love this. You know Newton’s Law. For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction. For every left there is a right. There has to be an opposite in order for anything to be in existence. If there is no opposite than the thing itself is not a thing at all. So in order for Jesus and love to exist there has to be opposite, and that is sin and death.

The only thing that has no opposite is God. God is I AM. I pray you choose to love Him today. The next second of your life is not guaranteed. You are reading this. Please don’t let this be one of the times you were offered a chance at eternal life in Heaven and again denied it. Open your heart and accept Jesus today. The gift of the Holy Spirit is yours and He is waiting to change your trajectory and I promise you, there isn’t one person who chooses this and regrets, they only wish they had decided sooner.

Say this prayer to accept Jesus today. Turn from your sin and life your life for Jesus. Eternity in heaven is waiting for you.

Matthew 13: 36-43

36 Then he left the crowd and went into the house. His disciples came to him and said, “Explain to us the parable of the weeds in the field.”

37 He answered, “The one who sowed the good seed is the Son of Man. 38 The field is the world, and the good seed stands for the people of the kingdom. The weeds are the people of the evil one,39 and the enemy who sows them is the devil. The harvest is the end of the age, and the harvesters are angels.

40 “As the weeds are pulled up and burned in the fire, so it will be at the end of the age. 41 The Son of Man will send out his angels,and they will weed out of his kingdom everything that causes sin and all who do evil. 42 They will throw them into the blazing furnace, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.43 Then the righteous will shine like the sun in the kingdom of their Father. Whoever has ears, let them hear.

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